22 9 / 2014

nightnursenotes:

I am always tired but I can never sleep.

22 9 / 2014

21 9 / 2014

Rockin’ new shoes…and yes, those are happy hot air balloons on my dress. I love modcloth!

Rockin’ new shoes…and yes, those are happy hot air balloons on my dress. I love modcloth!

21 9 / 2014

One of our night nurses either quit or got fired. The positive side of that is I won’t have to work as a cna on the weekends anymore. The downside is now we’re even more understaffed than we were before.

This poor lady is training with one of our cnas…they have the whole hall to themselves. I saw her slip something under the DON’s door, and I’m hoping it wasn’t her resignation lol.

19 9 / 2014

My class today

  • 1: So when you see the 4 year old boy pull the little girl's hair...
  • 2: He likes her!
  • 1: Now they are around 11 or 12 and he grabs her arm and wrestles her to the ground even though she calls him a jerk and yells at him to leave her alone.
  • 2: That is just how boys are.
  • 1: Now they are 18 and he grabs her arm and--
  • 2: Oh, that's not okay.
  • 1: Really? How would he know? How would she know? How would you know? You just told me that for the first 17 years of these children's lives that you thought it was cute, sweet, and natural for a boy to grab a girl and be rough with her.
  • 2: Oh.
  • 1: Oh, is right.

19 9 / 2014

Thought it was just a myth until tonight. It’s all good though…I’m gonna make it without her damn help. Sink or swim? I’m doing laps.

18 9 / 2014

I don’t write about my kid much because public forum and all, but I feel like I need to vent somewhere.

My daughter started public school last year, and she LOVED kindergarten. I had heard about how awful NC public schools were, but I just didn’t see that at our district’s elementary school. The campus was bright and cheery with murals and art covering the walls of the hallways and classrooms. Her teacher was a joy to work with, and she thrived and learned so much.

This year I moved to a different district to be closer to work. I had heard good things about this school so I wasn’t too worried. From day one she has come home sad and saying she hates it. She has yet to talk about friends, and when I ask her about it she says, “I don’t know their names.” Her teacher seems to be strictly following the Common Core curriculum…to the point that if her letters are not perfectly formed according to the letter formation page sent home she gets red marks on her homework. The school is huge and feels like a prison with its plain white brick walls and lack of windows. She tells me she gets lost every day still (we’re almost 2 months in.)

Today was the last straw. She said, “Momma, not everything is about looking pretty all the time, right?” I said, “Of course not baby, why?” “My teacher said I have to look pretty every day. But I don’t want to be pretty every day.”

I am literally sitting here crying. Do not put your gender expectations onto my impressionable 6 year old who is perfectly happy with her roll-in-the-mud tom boy ways. Help her to learn the words; how to spell them, what they mean, how to sound them out. Don’t put so much weight on perfect letters that she gets frustrated and wants to give up. She is 6. Foster a love of learning. Help her grow and imagine and explore instead of programming her like a robot.

I’m looking into getting her back into her old school. Fingers crossed. It breaks my heart to hear her say she hates school now.

18 9 / 2014

18 9 / 2014

Go The Fuck To Sleep (Narrated by Samuel L. Jacks…:

To all my rowdy residents.

17 9 / 2014

Always at 0430 when I’m about to start my med pass…without fail.